Originally published June 1, 2015
I've never been persistent or dedicated enough to get really good at
something. If you're into aesthetics about transience, like wabi-sabi or mono no aware,
you might find some kernel of beauty to appreciate here, but you know
what would have been more beautiful than this? The things I would have
done with persistence and dedication.
To this day this is the coolest thing I've ever made. It's not even that cool.
No one ever told me blogging had to be for an audience.
given up on a lot of things. My dad tried to get me to learn a musical
instrument. I recently stopped practicing juggling. You should look at
the list of projects I've started and not done anything substantial with
before abandoning. This list doesn't exist; I'll never get around to
Okay, so I can't make art or other cool stuff. That's not actually a tragedy. There's plenty
of good art. It basically means I'll not be as cool and have a harder
time getting laid. What I see as actually important is that this lack of
persistence and dedication means I never learned lots of math or
physics or philosophy or programming or biology or whatever, so I can
never do important research.
Sometimes I wonder what my life
would have been like if I had, like, an older brother or something,
someone who always told me to keep going.